Bored... And Blessed

I am bored. For those who know me, this will not come as a surprise because this happens often. But now, it's like Boredom Plus... but with no fun point system.

A few years ago, I spent time with my Dr doing testing for ADHD and not surprising, the Dr was pretty sure that I qualified. I've given medication a go and combined with my outstanding organizational skills, most days I can manage life.

And last week, 2 of my kids got their official ADHD diagnosis.

So the 3 of us combined is like a jumble of nerves, wiggly bodies, loud voices... and complaints of boredom. We're tired of the homeschool, hiking, yard playing, dinner making routine of things. And while each one of us expresses our ADHD differently, we're all craving the excitement of something different.

The problem though, for me, lies in knowing that a little bit of boredom is actually good for us. It stirs our creativity, it gives us time to process emotions, it gives us a chance to slow down. But everything in me wants to whine and complain that I've already been creative and processe-y and slow.... I want big, loud, excitement. A road trip, a plane ride, an adventure.

So I'm finding myself very much stuck these days in an in-between world of knowing what's good for me and of holding back an intense desire to rebel against every system and run away.

And just when I'm literally rolling on my couch moaning for freedom, Dave calls me to the office to watch a video. The Blessing, sung by church members in the UK and in South Africa.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PUtll3mNj5U

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8EPcd0B5SNs

And I'm blown away by the simplicity of the message of this scripture and so grateful for the comfort it brings in a time of stress and excitement and boredom and whatever it is that you're experiencing.

So from Numbers 6:24-25

"The Lord bless you and keep you;

the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you;

the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace."

May you feel it as I feel it. Knowing that God's grace and peace is upon me, even as I'm laying, whiny on my couch, feeling sorry for myself. Even as I'm struggling with homeschool and being calm. Even as I'm being annoyed with my kids for not sitting still. Even as I'm wandering around my house wishing for a few moments of quiet to finish a blog post...or my coffee.

I haven't earned it. I don't deserve it but it is freely given. And a few moments of sheer boredom have led me right back to the words I need to hear most today. What a blessing that boredom can be. Now, if only I could teach my kids to embrace it the same way... that should keep me busy and out of trouble.